leahmarie

Its Spring, and the weather is Beautiful!  Had to go outside and and take some pictures Thats me and my 4 year old daughter Amy, her full name is Amethyst Moon. Here is a pic of the whole family~

It is so nice to have a bit of green in our yard out here in Arizona hehe. Here are my three boys, Neo the oldest, and tallest, Dethen the blonde, and Symon the fury one!

So thats my little happy family

Ah its such an awesome day! Hitting my mini goal was a HUGE thing for me….I mean wow, I never actually thought I could even get close to loosing this much weight, and I know I can hit my real goal. My body is feeling so healthy, I got some Womens One A Day vitamins. And want to know something really weird, well super weird for me anyway, I wake up in te morning and look FORWARD to working out on my bike and getting all sweaty….its so weird for me, I have never in my life stuck to any kind of diet or exercise scheduel, so for 4 months straight I have been doing it and it is sooooo paying off, I am looking forward to being around where I want to be by this summer. Lets all make it a goal of being close to where we wanna be by this summer!

I do have to admit a few things, for some reason its getting harder and harder for me to eat at least 1200 cals a day, I push myself  but I get so full so easily any more, truly learning portrion control is the best way to go, no need for any surgery to shrink your tummy! And another thing I have to admit to you guys is, I went ahead and bought myself a bottle of diet pills on Friday, I know it sounds bad, but I only take half of the recommended daily dose, I am just really excited that I am finally after YEARS of being so big, finally I am almost under 200 lbs, and Iwanted a little extra boost to get there a little faster. I choose a brand that has been around for awhile, without any serious horror stories lol.

On another note I am really happy and excited to announce that I have finally created my very own web site, offering Pet Portrait services….I would love it if you could check it out! Here is the link~

Midnight Dreamer Studio

http://www.geocities.com/midnight_dreamer_studio/midnightdreamerstudio.html

Hey if you know of anyone who might like the idea of Pet Portraits I would love for you to share my site…..I know shameless self promotion, but I am just so happy I finally got a website up and running and finally on a road to living my dream!

And an update on my fiance, John…well they ran some tests and found he has a degenerative disk disease, they still need to do an MRI to see if he has any other issues on top f that, but the doctor’s are finally taking him seriously, and it makes such a difference! Monday he goes in for pain management and we are both looking forward to that.

So buddies that is my update, I am getting more computer time in, I will be able to catch up on your blogs and stuff. I have missed being active here so much! Thanks to all of you who leave me such awesome and inspiring booster notes, you guys really add smiles and sunshine to my day!

Talk to ya soon!
Peace,

Leah♥

PS~

Bought myself more size 16s and they are fitting perfectly! 14s here I come

Finally spring has come, I have been waiting all winter, spring is my absolute favorite season….and I think this spring will be better than the last…..

Finally got the doctors to listen and my man, John, will be getting his MRI right after he gets his blood tests, thats a big achievement, finally the doctors are taking this seriously! I wrote a letter to his new primary care physician the last time he had an appointment, I could not go with him because of the kiddos. I think I pulled on her heart strings a bit and made her understand that this doesnt just effect John, this effects the kids and myself as well and we need him to get better! Well I guess she listened, I was so happy when the nurse called yesterday to tell John that they were going to order his MRI, first they need to do a few blood tests….just so happy that we are finally getting some real tests done, the first step towards a diagnosis and real treatment.

On another note, I hit a personal goal the other day….you see my friend gave me a couple pairs of pants one was size 15 juniors and the other is size 16 junior petite…well I knew I couldnt get into the 15s just yet, so I mustered up my courage and figured if I couldnt get into the 16s it wouldnt be that big of a deal…but I went ahead and tried to get into to them….when they were fitting up and over my thighs I was so happy, when it came time to button them, well I admit, I lied down on my back on my bed and then got them buttoned! You see I havent been in a size 16 since I was like 18/19….even though they were really tight, I was just so happy to even get them on, I mean especially coming from size 24!!!!

I am really doing this, I thought I could never get back down to 16s, now I am getting back into the 16s, and I will keep going until I am in 12s and 10s! I know I can do this……I am only 2 pounds away from my mini goal, wooot!!! And if I can be doing this, I know anyone can do it! All it takes is realizing that you are doing this for you and only you, because you deserve to be happy, healthy and live life to the fullest!

I want to get another picture up for my ‘after’ pic, the one up is old and I look so different now, I just need to wait till pay day on Wednesday to buy some batteries and I will get another pic up.

Now that I have lost a pretty large amount of weight I am starting to have a bit of a problem, maybe you guys can give me some tips…..I am getting extra skin everywhere! my arms, my inner thigh, my tummy….how can I get rid of it? Anyone have any tips, or know of any vitamins or lotions are anything I could do to help my skin get back to something more normal?

You guys are such rockin’ buddies, thanks for all your help and all of your motivation, I couldnt have come this far without my buddies! Keep your eyes on the prize and we will get to where we wanna be!  My next personal goal is to be in 14s by the summer, this summer is going to be a great one, I can feel it! Make sure you enjoy each and every day of this spring, spring is such a specail time of year!

Peace Always Guys!
Leah♥

I know I have been away for such a long time, it feels like forever since I have been able to catch up with any of my awesome buddies….ah what can I say life, it has its ups and downs….right now me and my fiance are in between a rock and a hard place….

What do you do when the Doctors wont do anything?
My fiance has been to many doctors for his back, we think he may have a herniated disk, when he goes to these doctors not only do they ask him retarded questions like ‘Why are you standing like that?”, but they send him away with a diagnosis of depression!
His back is getting worse every day, he cant really walk with out crutches, and he cant even stand up straight, he curves over to one side. How can the doctors not see that there is something very wrong with this 36 year old man, father of three who cant even play with his children!

Of course he is a little depressed when he cant even get anyone to take him seriously, he is in severe pain every day, and no one will even do any testing to make a diagnosis…. His weight has plummeted from 185 to about 155 now over the course of two months. I can see a clear visible change in the man I have loved for 10 years, I dont understand why the doctors arent really doing anything!
They sent him over to pain management, but they dont have an opening for over a week and a half, they sent him to the neurologist but they dont have any openings for two months. Why cant his primary care physician run any basic tests or even give him a CT scan or an MRI to see what is really going on in his back, so we can get him up and around again?!
So they pass him off to other doctors who cant even see him, so he sits here in pain, what are we supposed to do? ER doctors wont even look at him and send him out with a lower back pain diagnosis.
Are we supposed to sit here and watch it get worse, day by day, until the doctors actually do something? Are they going to get around to finding out what is wrong with him, or just send him away with pills that dont fix anything? Does anyone have any idea if there is anything we can do to make them do this faster?
Please help, I have no where to go, no idea what to do, and a man who is in so much pain he doesnt know what to do any more……

Any ideas will be much appreciated thank you!
Peace Always Guys,
Leah♥

Hello Guys, it feels like its been ages since I have been on here long enough to write up a blog or check in on any of you….so very sorry for that guys! Life has been handing out the good stuff and the bad stuff lately here. My fiance, John, has been having back issues, he just had to have his tail bone reset into the right position and now all down one side of his hip and leg is just going crazy with muscle cramps all day and all night, we have been doing stretches, rubs, and anything we can think of to help his condition. Now he started taking supplements like DHEA and minerals to help make sure he isnt deficient so he can get on the right healing track.

SO I have been a busy bee lately…you are probably wondering about the title of my blog….I was so foolish and I didnt realize how much you really have to pay attention to your body…The last month I stepped up my bike routine to an hour of fast sweaty biking with a 20 minute cool down, it burned a whopping 1200+ cals and I was only taking in between 1300 and 1500….I will admit that there was a few days that I only got up 1000 cals….well after about a month of this it finally caught up to me and I started getting really run down, but the scariest part was my heart, I would just be sitting with John and it would be pounding so hard and making me feel so dizzy, but foolishly I kept with this routine for about a week more and it got so bad that instead of a few episodes of that heart pounding dizziness, it switched up to constant heart pounding dizziness even during the night when I was trying to sleep…..so I took the time to figure out what a healthy intake of calories for my height and weight is, which at the moment is 1800 a day, and I did more research about how many calories to burn, and you are only supposed to put yourself in a deficit of 500 and no more than a 1000 without health risks….so I switched it back to a sweaty 30 minutes of biking with a 10 minute cool down and this burns 700+ cals and I bumped up my intake of cals to at bear minimum 1500 and a max of 1800. Plus tomorrow I am going to pick my self up some vitamins.

I learned the hard way not to take my body for granted and even if it takes longer for me to hit my target goal, I dont care I am going to make sure I give my body what it needs. And I just want all my buddies to know about my mistake, made because I wanted the weight gone faster, which actually didnt help me at all because it caused  a platue in my weight loss, but now that I have changed it up and doing the right, healthy way I have started to shed a few pounds since last weigh in, I am only 7 pounds away from my mini goal wooooot!!!! And what is more important, my heart is acting more normal again, with fewer and fewer episodes, so I know I am on the right track to a healthy body

I really hope you are all on a healthy road to a new you, please take the time to cherish all you have, never take yourself for granted and do everything you can to nourish your body, mind and spirit!
I will try to get on here and chat more, as my man gets better and better I will have more me time hehe! I wanted to send a huge shout out to all you beautiful wonderful people, thank you for being you and thank you for always being here!
Peace Always my friends!
Leah♥